I’m hesitant to share this. This is not design.

This is a confession of a text-book Type-A personality: me.

Flickr photo "Busy Bee Resting"

I had an ugly revelation this morning. I put myself in time-out.  I’m go 100mph everyday, and it’s taking a toll on me.  I usually wake up with my heart thumping- thump thump thump – this is how I know it’s time to get out of bed… when I’ve played  my to-do list over and over again in my head so much that my heart starts to pound and my blood pressure rises (free alarm clock, right?).  So, this morning I awoke, got my coffee and sat down.  Usually I drink my coffee while doing something – reading mail, straightening sofa pillows, doing dishes, making bed, doing laundry, making a list, getting dressed, adding to list I just made, talking on phone, checking email, showering (yes, have drank coffee in shower)… you get the point.  This morning I decided to BE STILL.  I sat at a barstool in my kitchen and opened the Bible.  I said "show me something Lord".  Do you know what I flipped my Bible open to? The story of Martha & Mary. HOLY CANOLI… I am Martha.  I hate this truth about me.  After I read this I got up for cup of coffee no 2… and started up the stairs.  But then I felt the need to STOP and be still again.  So I stopped on the steps and sat down (think: Super Nanny "go to the naughty step") I made myself sit still there until I finished the second cup.  Man, it was an awesome feeling – totally quiet house, just me sitting on the steps.  So random… but so true.

These are photos of scaffolding. Ha! Seriously! The water/sun/sky/beach never crossed my mind til I was looking thru that clients file in my computer. It’s like I’m the worker bee too busy pollenating to stop and smell the flowers.  I thought ‘client will like to see scaffolding so they’ll know how far stucco guys have gotten’.  Am I crazy or what? 

I need a reminder to chill out, most things that cause stress (my stress) anyway, are really no big deal, nothing is perfect in this life.

If posts are light the next few days it is because I’m attempting to turn over a new leaf.

Peace out – thanks for reading… I love all you people in blogland!